I am leaving for England tomorrow around 11am :-( Mam is not getting any better and I just feel in my heart that it's time to go home. I thought she was improving, but after talking to my sister yesterday we realize that she's not getting any better just yet. In fact she's on so much morphine that she's barely conscious throughout the day.
The news I was getting each morning wasn't exactly accurate... what was happening was my sister would call the hospital in the morning to ask if Mam had had a comfortable night, she was told that she had and that she was even eating breakfast! Brenda would then text my sister Jean (who lives 3 hours away) to let her know, and then Jean (who's on the computer more than Brenda) emailed me to give me an update.
Because I got that news on Tuesday I didn't bother calling Brenda that night, but I called her on Wednesday night, even though the update that morning was the same... Mam was comfortable and was eating a little. Brenda had to tell me the whole truth - and I wanted to hear it. Despite the fact that Mam is sleeping well at night (so the hospital says) Brenda sees that she is not any better when she goes to visit, in fact if anything Mam looks worse because she is so 'doped up' on morphine. The problem is, if they reduce the dosage then Mam is in extreme pain. She was still in pain on Wednesday because some silly male nurse told her she could only have pain meds every 4 hours and she was crying to Brenda for some relief :( Brenda immediately went ot speak to another nurse and that nurse confirmed to the male nurse that Mam was on meds every hour!
So, I'm leaving tomorrow, and I am trusting God that I will get there in time and I can spend some time with Mam. I trust Him too for complete healing for Mam whether it is on this earth or her heavenly home. I know Jason and Kristen will manage just fine while I'm gone.
I will be able to update my blog while I'm there and I can access Facebook. I just won't be able to get to my email because I use Outlook.
Because I got that news on Tuesday I didn't bother calling Brenda that night, but I called her on Wednesday night, even though the update that morning was the same... Mam was comfortable and was eating a little. Brenda had to tell me the whole truth - and I wanted to hear it. Despite the fact that Mam is sleeping well at night (so the hospital says) Brenda sees that she is not any better when she goes to visit, in fact if anything Mam looks worse because she is so 'doped up' on morphine. The problem is, if they reduce the dosage then Mam is in extreme pain. She was still in pain on Wednesday because some silly male nurse told her she could only have pain meds every 4 hours and she was crying to Brenda for some relief :( Brenda immediately went ot speak to another nurse and that nurse confirmed to the male nurse that Mam was on meds every hour!
So, I'm leaving tomorrow, and I am trusting God that I will get there in time and I can spend some time with Mam. I trust Him too for complete healing for Mam whether it is on this earth or her heavenly home. I know Jason and Kristen will manage just fine while I'm gone.
I will be able to update my blog while I'm there and I can access Facebook. I just won't be able to get to my email because I use Outlook.
I appreciate your continued prayers.
20 comments:
Denise, travel safely. I know this trip will mean much to both you and your mother. My best wishes for both of you during this difficult time.
Denise,
Have said a prayer for you all.
God comfort you.
d
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Safe travels.
Big hugs,
Kim
Praying for you as you go sweetie, & for your dear Mam. I'm here for you always. With love and warm hugs, Julie.
Denise, I just saw this. Sweetie I will be praying for you and your family. I am so glad you are getting the chance to go now. Please update us as soon as you can. I pray for a safe and uneventful flight for you. I know Jason and Kristin will be fine while your away. They are in my prayers too.
Warm and big hugs sweetie.
Hugs,
Cindy
Travel safely. My heart goes with you. My prayers are with you, your family here and there.
Not sure how long you'll be gone, but will look for updates on your mum's progress.
Don't forget some knitting for the plane.
Praying for you.. for a safe trip and some precious time..
Hi Denise, I am praying for a safe trip and that you will have time to be with Mam. Love you!
You will be fine and so will Jason and Kristen.
We will all be lifting you up in prayer while you are gone.
Have a safe trip and enjoy spending time with your mom.
Hi Denise! I think you've made the right decision. You will feel so much better being there and I'm sure your mam will love having you with her when she's not well. Have a safe trip and try not to worry about Jason and Kristen too much. (((Big Hugz)))
I'll certainly pray for you and your mom!
God bless you,
G
oh Denise, I'm so sorry. This must be so heartbreaking for you.
Take care, and safe journey. I'm thining of you. xx
Safe travels and praying you get the time you need with your Mam.
God speed, bless you and protect you while you journey. It is very wise to listen to your heart for I believe the Holy Spirit directs and guides in these matters. Go knowing you are carried in God's strong arms and surrounded by the love and prayers of friends. May He bless your mother with His peace, comfort and presence and touch her with healing.
Love ya sweet girl.
Lynn
Denise,
You and your family are in my prayers.
Deborah
Denise,
You and your family are in my prayers.
Deborah
Denise,
You and your family are in my prayers.
Deborah
Denise, sending heartfelt prayers to you.
God bless,
Barb
Hi Denise. Praying for your mam. I hope you had a safe trip. God Bless.
Sandra
Denise take care of yourself and have safe travels. I do hope your Mam recovers and does very well.
Blessings & prayers to you all.
~Melissa
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